Abbie R

An otherwise healthy 23-year-old doesn’t just wake up one day with two heart conditions and dysautonomia. That just does not happen. Or it didn’t, before the COVID vaccine. Before that day, I was able to walk, run, and exercise without limits, and did so.When I had the first Pfizer vaccination, I was fine bar the usual expected vaccination side effects. But the second one destroyed me.

I woke up a few days after that second vaccination unable to breathe properly, really gasping and struggling for air. That was the first sign something was wrong. That same day, I started to recognise a whole bunch of new symptoms I’d never experienced before — tachycardia, chest pain, fatigue, mental confusion, and my body felt like lead. I called my GP at the time to discuss these symptoms, and I was told, “That’s normal for a young woman. It’s anxiety.” The doctor increased my diazepam to 40 mg a day. I weighed 40kg at the time and I did not need, nor did I ever take, 40mg of Valium a day.

Bonus fun fact: That appointment was over the phone, but the doctor told AHPRA she examined me. She didn’t. She lied to them and got away with it. Honestly, that tells me all I need to know.

I believe she knew what was causing my issues and didn’t want me to seek real help. It is because of her that I did not go to the hospital sooner. And because of her, I did not attend the ED, and thus did not get admitted to hospital. This means I will likely never receive vaccine injury compensation, as these are requirements for the vaccine injury claims paperwork. I firmly believe I would’ve been admitted during that first week, as my symptoms were so severe. But I stupidly chose to listen to this GP.

Eventually, I went to emergency a few times in both Victoria and Perth when I later moved up there. I was dismissed every single time with ‘it’s just anxiety’. So, I’ve just lived like that, gasping for air, presyncope upon standing up, tachycardia, chest pain, for the last few years. It wasn’t until 2023, that I had a series of ECGs and a Holter monitor for 21 days following extreme symptom flare-ups at work. These flare-ups would cause my entire body and face to go red, my head and face to swell, petechiae on my inner arms, presyncope, dizziness, warmth, and confusion.

I was diagnosed with 2nd degree AV block Mobitz 1 and inappropriate sinus tachycardia shortly after. A series of stand tests for POTS performed at home, show my heart rate jumps between 30 and 45 bpm, and that new heart rate is maintained until I lay back down or faint — whichever comes first. I also have other symptoms of POTS/dysautonomia that are far too long and detailed to get into.

So far I’ve been unable to find a GP or cardiologist willing to even believe POTS exists, let alone willing to diagnose it. The same goes for dysautonomia.

Funny how doctors clam up when you bring up such terms during an appointment. Also funny is the increase in the number of people being diagnosed with both conditions since the vaccines were introduced. I refuse to believe that’s just because ‘the condition is still being researched’ or whatever BS excuse people want to throw out about it being ‘previously under-diagnosed’. I did not have POTS prior to getting these vaccinations. I’ve never in my life had such issues with showers and the heat and standing up or in place.

Yet there are still some cardiologists and doctors who want to say these issues are due to ‘no longer being conditioned (to exercise/walking)’. It can’t be ‘deconditioning’ if I never stopped doing it, can it? It’s not like I stopped exercising during COVID, I did it every damn day. I actually exercised more than I before as there was literally nothing else to do other than being inside all day.

These symptoms appeared overnight. That is not ‘deconditioning’. That is a vaccine injury. If I was lazy or overweight, fine, have a go at me, make me change my habits and blame my lifestyle first. But I have never been overweight, and I have exercised or at least walked every day of my life since childhood.

These symptoms were not gradual. They were sudden. They happened overnight. Trick question. Pray tell how ‘deconditioning’ causes two heart conditions and dysautonomia overnight

Answer? It doesn’t.

Even if it was deconditioning, it would have taken months or years for these conditions to develop. Not the two days post-vaccination that I didn’t go for a walk or exercise. When a GP or specialist suggests ‘deconditioning’ in my situation, they are literally saying it can happen in TWO DAYS.

WHICH IT CAN’T.

SCIENTIFICALLY NOT POSSIBLE.

But they want to pretend it is, because it’s easier to change how science and medicine works on the fly, rather than admit our government made me and potentially millions of others sick and that they were complicit.

Doctors are gaslighting us. We know what we’ve really got and what caused it, and they really don’t like it when we’re right.

It is important to note that one cardiologist did suggest the vaccine may have played a part in my diagnoses. But of course, I was given no formal record of this. The ones who do admit what happened are just as complicit as the ones who deny it, because they’re too scared to actually document it.

Today, I spend a good chunk of my life rotting in bed. I’ve done one ‘fun’ thing in three years. One.

I went to the aquarium a few months ago.

End of list.

I don’t not do stuff because I don’t want to, but because I physically can’t. I’ve given up everything in an attempt to get better. The few unhealthy habits I did have are long gone, I’ve been sober from alcohol for a year, and cigarette free for over two. If I’m being totally honest, quitting both haven’t made any difference to my symptoms. If anything, they’ve only gotten worse.

I’ve tried strict bed rest for months on end, I’ve tried regular short walks, whole food diets, lost even more weight despite being underweight already. I’ve tried every mindfulness and breathing technique you can think of. Nothing helps. The damage has been done.

Despite trying everything that has been suggested to me, I remain profoundly symptomatic. To this day I experience an endless range of symptoms including:

  • chest pain,
  • palpitations,
  • a resting heart rate of 180bpm without my medication (5mg ivabradine, twice a day),
  • shortness of breath,
  • my body feeling “too heavy” to even walk,
  • muscle aches and pains,
  • fatigue,
  • mental confusion,
  • nausea and vomiting,
  • inability to regulate my body temperature,
  • presyncope,
  • blood pooling,
  • severe diaphoresis,
  • a squeezing sensation in my head when I stand, and a squeezing sensation in my chest when sitting upright.

I have also been stuck in a permanent fight or flight state since that second dose. There have also been other strange problems that I still don’t have answers for, such as my period suddenly becoming so painful it was making me scream in pain uncontrollably. Literally from the first cycle after the vaccine, the pain has been so bad, that it affects my breathing and causes me to nearly pass out even while sitting down. I have to take Panadeine Forte to get through it.

Prior to finally asking for pain medication, I was taking extreme measures to stop the pain, including, but not limited to, harming myself in other ways in order to distract from it.

My period also comes every 19 days now, which is not normal for me. Even when I am not on my period, I have extreme ‘period’ pain. I suspect it is polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). But if you think I trust these doctors enough to go investigating inside my body since COVID-19 went down, you’re nuts.

None of these things were my reality before the vaccine. I cannot stress enough how I had nothing physically wrong with me in my entire life until I got that second dose. A third vaccination was mandatory for me in order to flee the state due to domestic abuse. I literally had to make myself sicker to get out of that situation alive. I feared that second vaccination was what really did me in, but that maybe I had a shot at recovering somehow. Until I got that third damned jab that sealed my fate as disabled forever.

I’ve heard of people eventually getting better, but I’m afraid that will never be me.

I’ve made attempts to have my GP at the time investigated, as well as to apply compensation for my injury, all to no avail.

I recently joined a class action and am praying that goes somewhere. I want to make it clear, that had the government been honest about the side effects the COVID vaccine caused, I actually would’ve accepted this fate. I genuinely wouldn’t be so upset had we been told up front about the risks and side effects, and I still went ahead and ended up sick. I would have seen them as a necessary risk.

But because they lied? Yeah, all trust is gone. I will never be getting any vaccine of any kind ever again. Not even the flu vaccine, as I recall being told it’s changed slightly every few years. I just don’t trust them to tell us if they add something potentially harmful. Because now, in my view, they’ve done that before.

It is not ‘schizo’ to have these fears. It’s pattern recognition and self-preservation. To trust the Australian government or the WHO’s vaccines again, would be the definition of insanity.

The doctors are not on our side. What the Australian government did was attempted genocide, and the general practitioners who shrugged off patients with complications from their vaccinations had a hand in it.

To not trust them is simply a survival instinct at this point.

They’ve already poisoned us with one vaccine, so good luck to anyone who wants to chance another. There’s not enough money in the world to make me take anything our government or the WHO approves ever again, because I don’t know what they’re omitting.

I’d rather risk my own life and everyone else’s around me, than have my AV Block progress, or my POTS flare up, or to risk a third heart condition. I don’t care if that sounds selfish. The last time I wasn’t selfish, the last time I blindly trusted my government to do the right thing, I woke up with two heart conditions and dysautonomia. Never again, that’s a promise.

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An otherwise healthy 23-year-old doesn’t just wake up one day with two heart conditions and dysautonomia. That just does not happen. Or it didn’t, before the COVID vaccine. Before that day, I was able to walk, run, and exercise without limits, and did so.

When I had the first Pfizer vaccination, I was fine bar the usual expected vaccination side effects. But the second one destroyed me.

I woke up a few days after that second vaccination unable to breathe properly, really gasping and struggling for air. That was the first sign something was wrong. That same day, I started to recognise a whole bunch of new symptoms I’d never experienced before — tachycardia, chest pain, fatigue, mental confusion, and my body felt like lead. I called my GP at the time to discuss these symptoms, and I was told, “That’s normal for a young woman. It’s anxiety.” The doctor increased my diazepam to 40 mg a day. I weighed 40kg at the time and I did not need, nor did I ever take, 40mg of Valium a day.

Bonus fun fact: That appointment was over the phone, but the doctor told AHPRA she examined me. She didn’t. She lied to them and got away with it. Honestly, that tells me all I need to know.

I believe she knew what was causing my issues and didn’t want me to seek real help. It is because of her that I did not go to the hospital sooner. And because of her, I did not attend the ED, and thus did not get admitted to hospital. This means I will likely never receive vaccine injury compensation, as these are requirements for the vaccine injury claims paperwork. I firmly believe I would’ve been admitted during that first week, as my symptoms were so severe. But I stupidly chose to listen to this GP.

Eventually, I went to emergency a few times in both Victoria and Perth when I later moved up there. I was dismissed every single time with ‘it’s just anxiety’. So, I’ve just lived like that, gasping for air, presyncope upon standing up, tachycardia, chest pain, for the last few years. It wasn’t until 2023, that I had a series of ECGs and a Holter monitor for 21 days following extreme symptom flare-ups at work. These flare-ups would cause my entire body and face to go red, my head and face to swell, petechiae on my inner arms, presyncope, dizziness, warmth, and confusion.

I was diagnosed with 2nd degree AV block Mobitz 1 and inappropriate sinus tachycardia shortly after. A series of stand tests for POTS performed at home, show my heart rate jumps between 30 and 45 bpm, and that new heart rate is maintained until I lay back down or faint — whichever comes first. I also have other symptoms of POTS/dysautonomia that are far too long and detailed to get into.

So far I’ve been unable to find a GP or cardiologist willing to even believe POTS exists, let alone willing to diagnose it. The same goes for dysautonomia.

Funny how doctors clam up when you bring up such terms during an appointment. Also funny is the increase in the number of people being diagnosed with both conditions since the vaccines were introduced. I refuse to believe that’s just because ‘the condition is still being researched’ or whatever BS excuse people want to throw out about it being ‘previously under-diagnosed’. I did not have POTS prior to getting these vaccinations. I’ve never in my life had such issues with showers and the heat and standing up or in place.

Yet there are still some cardiologists and doctors who want to say these issues are due to ‘no longer being conditioned (to exercise/walking)’. It can’t be ‘deconditioning’ if I never stopped doing it, can it? It’s not like I stopped exercising during COVID, I did it every damn day. I actually exercised more than I before as there was literally nothing else to do other than being inside all day.

These symptoms appeared overnight. That is not ‘deconditioning’. That is a vaccine injury. If I was lazy or overweight, fine, have a go at me, make me change my habits and blame my lifestyle first. But I have never been overweight, and I have exercised or at least walked every day of my life since childhood.

These symptoms were not gradual. They were sudden. They happened overnight. Trick question. Pray tell how ‘deconditioning’ causes two heart conditions and dysautonomia overnight

Answer? It doesn’t.

Even if it was deconditioning, it would have taken months or years for these conditions to develop. Not the two days post-vaccination that I didn’t go for a walk or exercise. When a GP or specialist suggests ‘deconditioning’ in my situation, they are literally saying it can happen in TWO DAYS.

WHICH IT CAN’T.

SCIENTIFICALLY NOT POSSIBLE.

But they want to pretend it is, because it’s easier to change how science and medicine works on the fly, rather than admit our government made me and potentially millions of others sick and that they were complicit.

Doctors are gaslighting us. We know what we’ve really got and what caused it, and they really don’t like it when we’re right.

It is important to note that one cardiologist did suggest the vaccine may have played a part in my diagnoses. But of course, I was given no formal record of this. The ones who do admit what happened are just as complicit as the ones who deny it, because they’re too scared to actually document it.

Today, I spend a good chunk of my life rotting in bed. I’ve done one ‘fun’ thing in three years. One.

I went to the aquarium a few months ago.

End of list.

I don’t not do stuff because I don’t want to, but because I physically can’t. I’ve given up everything in an attempt to get better. The few unhealthy habits I did have are long gone, I’ve been sober from alcohol for a year, and cigarette free for over two. If I’m being totally honest, quitting both haven’t made any difference to my symptoms. If anything, they’ve only gotten worse.

I’ve tried strict bed rest for months on end, I’ve tried regular short walks, whole food diets, lost even more weight despite being underweight already. I’ve tried every mindfulness and breathing technique you can think of. Nothing helps. The damage has been done.

Despite trying everything that has been suggested to me, I remain profoundly symptomatic. To this day I experience an endless range of symptoms including:

  • chest pain,
  • palpitations,
  • a resting heart rate of 180bpm without my medication (5mg ivabradine, twice a day),
  • shortness of breath,
  • my body feeling “too heavy” to even walk,
  • muscle aches and pains,
  • fatigue,
  • mental confusion,
  • nausea and vomiting,
  • inability to regulate my body temperature,
  • presyncope,
  • blood pooling,
  • severe diaphoresis,
  • a squeezing sensation in my head when I stand, and a squeezing sensation in my chest when sitting upright.

I have also been stuck in a permanent fight or flight state since that second dose. There have also been other strange problems that I still don’t have answers for, such as my period suddenly becoming so painful it was making me scream in pain uncontrollably. Literally from the first cycle after the vaccine, the pain has been so bad, that it affects my breathing and causes me to nearly pass out even while sitting down. I have to take Panadeine Forte to get through it.

Prior to finally asking for pain medication, I was taking extreme measures to stop the pain, including, but not limited to, harming myself in other ways in order to distract from it.

My period also comes every 19 days now, which is not normal for me. Even when I am not on my period, I have extreme ‘period’ pain. I suspect it is polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). But if you think I trust these doctors enough to go investigating inside my body since COVID-19 went down, you’re nuts.

None of these things were my reality before the vaccine. I cannot stress enough how I had nothing physically wrong with me in my entire life until I got that second dose. A third vaccination was mandatory for me in order to flee the state due to domestic abuse. I literally had to make myself sicker to get out of that situation alive. I feared that second vaccination was what really did me in, but that maybe I had a shot at recovering somehow. Until I got that third damned jab that sealed my fate as disabled forever.

I’ve heard of people eventually getting better, but I’m afraid that will never be me.

I’ve made attempts to have my GP at the time investigated, as well as to apply compensation for my injury, all to no avail.

I recently joined a class action and am praying that goes somewhere. I want to make it clear, that had the government been honest about the side effects the COVID vaccine caused, I actually would’ve accepted this fate. I genuinely wouldn’t be so upset had we been told up front about the risks and side effects, and I still went ahead and ended up sick. I would have seen them as a necessary risk.

But because they lied? Yeah, all trust is gone. I will never be getting any vaccine of any kind ever again. Not even the flu vaccine, as I recall being told it’s changed slightly every few years. I just don’t trust them to tell us if they add something potentially harmful. Because now, in my view, they’ve done that before.

It is not ‘schizo’ to have these fears. It’s pattern recognition and self-preservation. To trust the Australian government or the WHO’s vaccines again, would be the definition of insanity.

The doctors are not on our side. What the Australian government did was attempted genocide, and the general practitioners who shrugged off patients with complications from their vaccinations had a hand in it.

To not trust them is simply a survival instinct at this point.

They’ve already poisoned us with one vaccine, so good luck to anyone who wants to chance another. There’s not enough money in the world to make me take anything our government or the WHO approves ever again, because I don’t know what they’re omitting.

I’d rather risk my own life and everyone else’s around me, than have my AV Block progress, or my POTS flare up, or to risk a third heart condition. I don’t care if that sounds selfish. The last time I wasn’t selfish, the last time I blindly trusted my government to do the right thing, I woke up with two heart conditions and dysautonomia. Never again, that’s a promise.

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