I’m 50 years old, a wife and mother of twin boys. I’m a hairdresser and have had my own business for 15 years. It’s not a job for me – it’s my calling. All my life, I have been a bubbly, outgoing person who loves to connect with people. I work long hours, six days per week. I have no pre-existing conditions and don’t take any medication. I’ve been mildly perimenopausal for seven years, never taken anything for it, and have only just missed my first period three weeks ago. I know my body well, and I am all about natural medicines.
I chose to stand in my truth and not be vaccinated, it was instinct, or comply with the government rules. I kept working even though personal care services were not permitted to operate unvaccinated. Restrictions were to be lifted when NSW were 95% vaccinated, or until the 1st of December 2021 – whichever came first. This date was extended to the 15th of December.
I kept working as we had bought our house six months prior and needed the income. The lead up to Christmas is also my busiest time. In late October police came to shut down my business because someone in the community had reported me. One of the officers was kind and said he wouldn’t fine me, but I can’t stop people spying.
I had my first AstraZeneca vaccine on the 3rd of November 2021 out of complete and utter fear. Some naturopaths I had spoken to had the perspective it was easier to detox AstraZeneca, so I thought it was my best option. I told the medical centre that I wanted a doctor to administer the vaccine and forced him to sit with me and answer a list of hard medical questions I wanted answers to.
He wasn’t very professional with me, so I challenged him to squirt the vaccine in the bin but record that I’d had it. He’d tried to be empathetic to my situation but wasn’t prepared to do it. I made him show me the vial to check that it was AstraZeneca, as per my request – they generally only offered Pfizer.
I felt broken afterwards. I had gone against everything within me to do this. I did everything I could to detox myself before and after, including a 24 hour alkalizing fast prior, and had two thermos of bone broth to have straight after, to flush my bowels. I was also taking many supplements recommended by the naturopath.
I had my first dizzy spell that afternoon as I stood at my kitchen bench cutting vegetables. I felt the need to throw my head back as it felt like the lights were going out, and I had a feeling of doom and gloom. I called my husband as I didn’t want to be alone. A couple of weeks later, a large spider vein bruise appeared behind my right knee.
I had been a hairdresser for 30 years and I hadn’t had a single vein until then. This was the first sign of something happening with my legs. I started to get a mild spasmodic feeling where the bruise appeared. I can only describe it as a weird electric feeling – like an electric eel living in my right leg, and it swims around to different parts of the knee. I had originally thought maybe the detox was working and my body was trying to purge the vaccine, but it continued and got progressively worse.
I went back for the second vaccine almost four weeks later on the 29th of November. When they gave me the consent form to sign, (I didn’t sign it the first time), I wrote all over the form ‘I DO NOT CONSENT’ and didn’t sign it. The nurse said, “You’re here for your second Pfizer vaccine,” as she took me to the room. I told her I would only have AstraZeneca, as I’d had that for my first. As it was outside the norm for them, she went away to discuss it with someone, and then got the AstraZeneca instead.
When she came back in she saw my form and said, “We’ll need your signature. Why is it that don’t you want it?” as she closed the door. I just started to cry and said, “I don’t want that poison in me, but I need to work.” She said, “I’m not going to give it to you. Some of us are helping in different ways.” She didn’t give it to me. She put a band-aid on my arm and wanted me to make out I’d changed my mind in the room, so I signed the form. I went back to work the next day.
Movement of the ‘electric eel’ in my leg got worse. Over the last 12 months, it has spread to both legs. At times when I’m having an episode, I glance down and catch some movement visible from the outside when it’s happening. The feeling can change from numbness to spasms, pulses. The feeling of it under my skin reminds me of the movie ‘Alien’. It’s painful when it happens and it feels like electric wasps through my body that bite or cut me from the inside. I have a popping sensation inside my veins, like Coca-Cola bubbles, and there’s a spasm similar to an eye twitch. There’s no pattern, and it happens at random times.
It has progressed to a feeling of electricity trying to get out of my head and the wasps starting to bite me under my skull, in my ear and other places. It feels like little stabs – like they’re trying to cut a way out. I’m someone who’s very aware of things going on in my body. When having my twins, I could feel the needle from the spinal block going all the way in even though the anaesthetist told me it couldn’t happen – but it did.
I started having random chest palpitations in February 2022. I went to the doctor about the symptoms. The female doctor I saw didn’t register me as vaccine-injured but took me seriously and did lots of tests including ANA (autoimmune), chronic fatigue, vein disease tests and more.
The results were all normal. I started to minimise my symptoms in my head because I wanted it to be something that could be healed or treated. I went back for more testing as the knee thing was permanently either stinging, burning, or pulsing. I researched what it could be and thought it could be a Baker’s cyst, or perhaps a clot in my knee, but the doppler test for that was negative and the ultrasound was fine. Because of the popping in my veins, the doctor referred me to a vascular surgeon.
I’m very open and always bring up what has happened to me since the vaccine. I saw the vascular surgeon in September 2022, and I had another more thorough ultrasound. The sonographer was squeezing my vein as they do in the test and must’ve noticed something unusual. He sounded concerned and called the surgeon into the room. They watched the screen for a minute, I was watching it too, and the sonographer said to him, “One minute everything is fine and the next minute this happens.”
The surgeon stayed for a minute, silently, then went back to his office. In his office afterwards he told me I had early onset varicose veins and that it was normal for blood to flow backwards in the veins, and for them to open and close strangely. He added that there was nothing he could do to help. He said it was psychosomatic and I had talked myself into these symptoms.
On the 8th of September 2022 my doctor sent a referral to a neurological organisation in NSW. I note that all my referrals say, ‘possible AstraZeneca reaction’. I rang them the next day to check they had the referral and was told the doctor was on leave and would read it when she returned. A week later, I chased it up as I hadn’t heard from them. The receptionist’s exact words were, “Your referral has been denied”. My doctor didn’t follow up or attempt to get me in anywhere else.
Other symptoms I have are dizzy spells where I get sensations of a rush of what feels like hot electricity, initially in my feet. I thought I had COVID-19, but I’ve continued having them in my feet, torso and through my head. The feeling can last between two and 30 seconds. Sometimes when I’m walking, I feel like my legs are disappearing, or like they’re not there. I stamp them to wake them up, or make it feel like they exist. I wear tights or activewear mostly, as a form of compression because if I don’t, it feels worse.
In the last two months, I’ve had a sensation like I’m in a dream-like state and like I’m not real. I have to find something to grab onto as I feel I’m about to go down. I’ve never fainted in my life, but it comes with a sense of doom, like I’m going to die, and it has been getting stronger and stronger.
When it first started happening, I wanted to call an ambulance or go to hospital about 20 or 30 times. Instead, I went to a chemist to get my blood pressure checked. The machine showed I had an irregular heartbeat. I’ve never had any issues with my heart before the vaccine. I went to the hospital, and they put me on the ECG and did tests to confirm I wasn’t having a heart attack. They kept me for an hour, saw my irregular heartbeat and pretty much told me it was normal. I started having the heat sensations more regularly, and more frequently in my face. This was quite distracting at work, and I got to the point of needing to sit down.
About four or five weeks ago I experienced the heat sensation at work again, and the next minute I had a giant electric pop feeling in my chest. It felt like I was going die on the spot. The beautician in my salon could see it on my face and raced me to hospital. I had the same hospital doctor from a few weeks before. He sent some suggestions back to the practice, but nobody from the practice had followed up with me.
I was scared and crying, which is not like me. He said he had been seeing more cases of myocarditis and pericarditis but told me, “The risks outweigh the repercussions.” I replied, “So you sacrifice people then..?!”
They ran the same tests they did the last time, and I had my third chest X-ray. I had pain in my breast area, so they did a mammogram to rule out anything growing. They saw one irregularity in the heart monitor in the six hours I was there. It feels like it’s a neurological problem.
A client told me about a local holistic doctor who had his licence taken away. I’m open with my clients about my story. She told him about me and referred me to see him. He does kinesiology, frequency, and naturopathy. I came away from my appointment feeling some hope, but then my symptoms worsened. It activated a detox process and I feel the toxins are trying to get out. He was saying that our mind is our most powerful medicine, and it’s important to eliminate all fear. I’m feeling a lot of fear at present. I’m scared to do anything alone and scared to die. I’m now also scared to drive long distances after what happened in mid-November when I was on my way to my follow up appointment with him, which was quite a drive away.
That day, a sense of doom and gloom that I was about to leave the planet came over me. I could feel it through my whole body. A wave of electrical energy came and rushed through my body and up through my head. It felt like what I imagine an aneurism/stroke might feel like – lights are about to go out.
The left side of my face went numb, and I was fighting in my mind that this thing is not going to take me. It feels like a living entity under my system. I tried to keep conscious, and it took everything in me to push my fear aside and breathe my way through so I could pull over at the nearest service station. I called my husband and said I didn’t think I could make it to the appointment. I took myself to the closest hospital and then sat under a tree to compose myself before going in. I anticipated that I’d be dismissed.
The nurses triaged me and put me on an ECG. I was crying hysterically when the doctor came because I was so scared. He’d obviously read my notes and previous test results and said, “The vaccine can’t do this. That’s impossible.” They gave me a CT scan and I had another spell in the room before I lay down. The scan on my head took no more than 45 seconds. They told me my brain looked fine and they’d send the information to my doctor. I felt sad for them because I know they were gagged and programmed over a period of time to live in fear of their jobs. It’s hard to be mad at them because they’ve experienced what I have. I partly sympathise and can foresee a large mental health crisis in our medical system when all this starts to crumble.
Each day, I have about two minutes from when I wake until it all starts. The stinging underneath the skin, pulsating spasms, pain in my shoulder blades, on and off dizzy spells, and the daily rushing waves in my brain, pulses, and pressure in my head. I have given up coffee and alcohol. I eat clean and if I must, I’ll pay to do a blood cleansing process, ozone therapy, like people are doing in the US. I’m in an infrared sauna every second day to try detox and sweat it out. I’m basically just working to pay for appointments, treatments, and supplements, It’s costing me a fortune. My husband isn’t coping well. I was always the matriarch of the family and there’s not a lot I can’t do now.
I have a garden I can’t tend, dogs aren’t being walked, and I struggle to find the energy to keep going. I’m normally bubbly and full of energy, but that’s been taken away from me.