My name is Rachel, I’m a 48-year-old single mother. Prior to the vaccine I was nursing for the last ten years, living a healthy lifestyle consisting of good diet, daily exercise and the Gold Coast life. I was definitely not in the state that I am in since taking the vaccine, that is for absolute sure! I never had any issues whatsoever of the kind I have now.
I got the vaccine because it was mandated in my field of work, being a nurse in mental health. I left it as long as I could. I didn’t think the COVID vaccine was necessary and as it hadn’t been tested, I didn’t want to be a test subject myself. At the end of the day though, I had to get it to put food on the table and keep a roof over my head.
Nursing was the last ten years of my life, and I loved my job. I was good at it, and I couldn’t see it any other way. Now after everything that has happened, I hate it. It has destroyed every sense of who I am.
I got the Moderna vaccine in August 2021 in my right arm. I didn’t feel anything immediately other than what you would expect from the procedure itself. I went home and everything was normal.
About a week later I noticed little red dots similar to pimples starting to appear mostly on my face but all over my body.
I’ve always had a good routine, I’m someone who has always had good skin, so I treated it like pimples by cleansing and steaming. A couple of days later I noticed that they weren’t normal pimples and I started to see the openings of the ‘pimples’ had black cores which I then thought were blackheads, something I don’t normally get.
That week the ‘pimples’ kept on appearing, which I treated the same way. I also started trying to squeeze them and pull out the black dots with tweezers and treat it like a wound, but nothing would come out, no puss, no sebum, no blood.
At this stage I started to get a little bit worried because it was like nothing I’d seen before. But I wasn’t stressed to the point of investigating it further, it wasn’t life threatening, I just thought it was an outbreak which I would get over and I got the second Moderna vaccine on 27 October 2021 also in my right arm.
It was about a month later and the ‘pimples’ kept on appearing all over my body. If I didn’t touch them, they would become painful. Without much pressure at all, I would easily break the surface of the ‘pimples’ and red crystals would appear with the same black dots in the middle.
I had a pore suction device which I tried to use on the ‘pimples’ and no fluid would come out, only what looked like dry crystallised blood. I just kept on going with my life thinking that it would go away, I was able to cover it up with makeup at that stage, so I thought – no big deal.
The skin problems persisted, and my body wasn’t healing as it should have. I was aware that this could have been from the vaccine but I just hadn’t seen anyone about it yet. Mid November I had tubal ligation (the tying of fallopian tubes); this was my choice. Post-surgery I started getting blood clots in my legs and a blue/grey shadowing from my neck down which looked like bruising. As soon as I would stand up my legs would fill up with blood and go dark purple in a honeycomb like pattern, mostly in my thighs.
I’m a nurse and I thought I could handle it. I used compression stockings and elevated my legs, I thought this would pass while I was at home recovering from my surgery, and I took a couple of weeks off work. During my recovery I started seeing weird blisters on my legs, which weren’t healing, just like all the other symptoms I was experiencing.
In early December life started to become heavy for me with things going on in my personal life. This added to the stress and anxiety caused by my never-ending skin problems and at this stage, taking a closer look at the blue/grey shadow, I started to see that it wasn’t bruising. It appeared to be hair/fur, with a texture similar to a pad of baby hair which was creating the shadow.
Towards the end of December, I was becoming so stressed and anxious due to my condition that I was struggling to leave my house and I was sitting up all night long trying to heal myself.
I went back to work but I was moved to casual because of the amount of time I’d had off. It actually suited me because of how I was feeling. I’d been back and forth to the GP on several occasions, and they just kept telling me I needed to be on antidepressants, which I took for a little while and they didn’t make me feel any better, so I didn’t take them for very long. At best the doctors gave me some antibiotics to take for my skin which didn’t work. I told them that this was a reaction to the COVID vaccine, but they wouldn’t entertain the idea for a second.
On 2 February 2022 my dad sadly passed away, and from that point on everything became exacerbated. I became obsessed with my condition, constantly filming, taking photos, documenting what was happening and looking repeatedly at my symptoms. By that stage all the symptoms I mentioned before became so severe that the pain was excruciating, and it hasn’t stopped to this day, with the only relief coming from hot showers, CBD oil, and a shampoo that my friend gave me. None of this has given me anything more than minimal temporary relief.
It’s very hard to explain and understand what I am experiencing from this vaccine injury. It’s completely taken over my life and I can’t function like a normal person. What I can only try to describe is that the hair is growing from the base of my neck, into the back of my ear, over and inside my ear, through the side of my face, out of my hair follicles and then back into my skin and it comes out of my face again in sores, fibres and lumps. The fibres look like hair, but it is not hair and it feels like nylon fibres. These fibres are growing underneath my skin across my entire face. It is deforming the shape of my face and I can sometimes physically change the shape of my face by moving the fibres around.
Another aspect of this unexplainable condition that I am experiencing is that it feels like there is a large single mass of floating oil on the top of my scalp which I can move with my hand all over my scalp. When I move the mass it gives me a little bit of relief, so I am constantly massaging my head. This now is causing the sensation to move to my lower neck and the deltoid area, and I now have one of the oil like masses on my right shoulder, which is causing my shoulder to dislocate, and a mass the size of my hand on my left hip which also feels like it’s dislocating my hip.
At the end of June 2022, I had to leave my job because of my condition and in the last week I have started to feel like I am having a prolapse of the rectum or the uterus, which is stopping me from going to the toilet normally. I’m not sure but with this symptom I have the same muscle pulling sensation that I’m feeling in my face and my body and I’m becoming increasingly worried about this now.
I can’t front myself to the hospital because I know they don’t believe me, and they are constantly telling me it’s just in my head and they will just send me straight to a mental health ward. Honestly, I’m at my wits end and I can’t find help anywhere. I’ve contemplated taking my own life. No one believes me.